Do you ever feel STUCK?!

Do you ever find yourself stuck?

Not sure which direction to go.. Not sure if you are taking the right path.. So stuck it is stressful..
I feel that way about careers.  I'm stuck!  I don't know what I should do, need to do, or want to do!  It is very stressful because I feel like at my age this is something I should know.  Sadly, I don't.  I am confused.  There are a few days out the year where I fall into depression because I am clueless.  On those depressed days, I tend to blame myself for certain things that I should have done!!!  I just wish I knew what I was supposed to be doing!

Well, I am tired of being stuck!  I have decided I just need to do everything it takes to find what is perfect for me to be happy with a career!

MY journey to finding my PASSION starts right now!

Loss of a Child

It took me a long time to revive after the loss of my son.  Can time really heal all wounds?  No..my wounds are not healed. But, I have learned to accept that it is no longer a nightmare and it is reality.  It took me three years to wake up... to finally stop picturing another child playing next to Isaiah...to stop imagining twins laying beside one another…to stop blaming doctors and nurses…to stop blaming God…to stop blaming MYSELF.  I still wonder what it would have been like with all three of my boys…would have I walked in through the front door and hear "Mami" "Mami" "Mami" and three huge hugs wrapped around me tightly instead of just hearing and feeling it twice?  Would there be random nights that I end up with three in my bed?  Then, I wonder maybe God knew Luis was going to suffer way more than he can handle.  

All I know now is that Luis is our Guardian, our protection, and our savior.  He will forever be in our hearts.  Though, my life after Luis was the most incredible pain I have ever felt in my life, Isaiah and Josiah make my life worth living.  My experience and journey has made me more appreciative of life ...of living ...of loving ...of enjoying ...of smiling …of SURVIVING!  I survived the loss of a child.