The Birthday Blues = High Expectations!

As I sit in this blue velvet seat, I am watching the trees fly by quickly, the cars across are going opposite direction, and listening to students as they laugh watching the movie, I contemplate the expectations that we as individuals set for ourselves.  Clearly, I can only speak of myself.  I set a drastic amount of goals every year, the list is always endless.  In my mind, it's realistic.  However, I fail to realize, what if I do not complete them all because of life's distractions.

Hmmmm... Here lies the problem, I have this wonderful set of aspirations to accomplish.  I believe when it is written, the higher the chance of completion. It has been true thus far!

When Birthday comes around, I tend to lay in bed all day, staying under the covers, turning the phone off, lights off, attitude, and throwing away years of exercise by eating buckets of ice cream... There are 364 days of the year that I am this totally happy positive person (most of the time) and this one day, I'm drowning in the Birthday Blues.  Yes, THE Birthday Bluesssss...

So... I could not understand why all I wanted to do was curl up and hate myself.  Then, BOOM!  It hit me!  My expectations of myself were far more harsh than it should ever be! 

We grow up with this timeline of completing our dreams.  When my Birthday arrives, it is a reminder of what I was not able to finish by that time.  

I forget to comprehend that besides this list that I have created, that there are far more responsibilities apart of my life than I give myself credit for, YES, EXACTLY!!  I have a family which includes a husband and two kids: wife and motherly duties, I was enrolled in an accelerated Masters program that occupied my life for twenty months, I work multiple jobs, I exercise daily, I attend church, I make time for family and friends and on top of it all, this list of goals.  The list continues....

As I sit here on this bumpy ride, hitting my head against the window, curled up in my fleece blanket, I think back to this list and with all that I have had on my plate, I have achieved about seventy-five percent of it.  This two year goal LIST…  Seventyyyyy Fiiiiive!!!  That is 3/4 of the way!  How can I be miserable over that?  It is an accomplishment all on its own!!  I need to keep refreshing my memory of it! 

Instead of worrying about unfinished goals, focus on the SUCCESSES!!  

I can't live up to all of my expectations and that's OKAY!  I expect too much of myself than God expects from me!  As long as I set my ambitions and not give up, then I'm doing the Best that I can!  That is what is most important!

CELEBRATE EVERY SUCCESS! 

  

           

Excuse any spelling or grammatical errors, this was written on a phone on a bus ride 😉